Daydreaming

I stepped into her room today

Knowing she’s not there

This waiting for referral

Is more than one can bear.

But taking in the moment

I sit down on the floor

And dream of her here with me

When waiting is no more.

A little giggle fills the air

As I rub her feet.

I place my hand upon her heart

To feel its every beat.

A song is sung so very soft

Her eyes begin to close.

She’s meeting me in dream land

A place where love still grows.

My vision now is very blurred.

The tears stream down my cheeks.

I’ve dreamed of her quite often

Throughout these past few weeks.

Suddenly a sound is heard.

The phone rings in the hall.

Waking up I quickly pray

Please let it be “The Call”.

-Tom Fisher

She Loves Me

She Loves Me
You started to grow, the Authorities wouldn’t learn

I knew in my heart, I’d carry you full term
She Loves Me Not
But you left me alone that night in the park

You left me alone by myself in the dark
She Loves Me
That place that I left you was busy by day

I knew you’d be found, I planned it that way
She Loves Me Not
I cried through the night, your face to see

Alone in the morning they discovered me
She Loves Me
I watched from a distance, I kept you in sight

Your cries broke my heart, the tears blocked my sight
She Loves Me Not
I went to a home where lots of kids live

There wasn’t much love like a mother would give
She Loves Me
I watched you that year, for I had a plan

A mother would come from a distant land
She Loves Me Not
You watched me? You cared?You knew that some day,

a mother would comeTo take me away?
She Loves Me
Yes, my darling, though oceans apart

A red thread connects us, a thread from my heart
She Loves Me
Oh mother, you love me.
Your plan came to be

I'm in a new home

I wish you could see

This one from your dreams

is really quite kind

She loves me like you,

the best one could find.

I'm sorry I questioned

how you felt that day

I know that you love me,

my heart is OK

That red thread you speak of,

I see it too!

It's comes from my heart,

straight back to you.

-Tom Fisher

A Mother's Love

She left you one morning,

She had no choice.

In a country of millions

She had just one voice.

The law made it clear

One child would do.

To obey it would mean

No hope for you.

As she laid you down

Her eyes became blurried.

On saying goodbye

Said don't you worry.

Another will come

To take my place.

A mother will come

From a different race.

She'll hold you and love you

As if you're her own.

She'll take you away

To a brand new home.

She then ran away

Her heart broke in two.

Don't ever forget

Of my love for you.

-Tom Fisher

I dream of you

Today I'm sitting at the spot

I call our secret place

With eyes closed tight I dream of you

The tears stream down my face

I left you here a year ago

It was to my despair

The emptiness within me

Is more than I can bear

Where are you today my darling?

Where are you today my dear?

A part of me is missing

I wish you still were here

Are you perhaps in China

Maybe right down the street

Sometimes I walk right by that place

In hopes our eyes will meet

I left you here my daughter

I left you in this place

Each time I close my eyes at night

My dreams fill with your face

I will always love you

I will always care

Even though I left you here

My dreams are yours to share

Please forgive me little one

There was no other choice

When you close your eyes at night

Your heartbeat is my voice.

Tom Fisher

Until Forever

This morning in China a mother cries
She’ll never forget her daughter’s eyes
Her heart is broken and filled with pain
The tears run down like the falling rain.

She has no choice but to leave her there
The cost of keeping is too much to bear
She hopes her daughter will one day know
True love can be found in letting her go.


This morning in China a baby cries
Hungry and scared as tears fill her eyes
Her mother has left her in this public place
Another lost daughter of the Chinese race.

Someone passing by has heard her soft moan
She’s soon quickly taken to a foster home
It’s here she’ll reside in the care of another
Until she’s adopted by a brand new mother.

That very same moment, in the U.S.A.
A woman cries as she starts to pray
Her heart is heavy but filled with much love
She prays for a daughter she thinks the world of.

“Dear Jesus I ask that your arms would be
Wrapped tightly around the one picked for me
Guard her in China ‘till I make my way
And then in my arms forever she’ll stay.”

Tom Fisher

If God Waits Longer Than You Wish. . .

Be assured that if God waits longer than you wish, it is only to make the blessing all the more precious.

Our Child

Our child Can never not be yours, Nor not ours.

So somehow, We must let you know Our unbound gratitude For this precious gift you nurtured then gave into our keeping.

Thank you for sharing life. For allowing it uterine maturity In place of abortive non-existence Which you could have chosen.

Thank you for Caring deeply enough, For trusting enough To place your babe into a small secure ark, To float in the rushes of life Without even a Miriam at the watch To tell you where His path will be.

We honor that trust, And shall love and cherish him As strongly and surely as you do.
Our child Will grow tall and well Undoubtedly with the stumblings And skinned knees of life. But always we will be there. And you also, in spirit, close by.

A mother's spirit knows no abandonment, No matter what circumstances Produce separation or distances Our child will always know that you care.

We pray for your joy and well-being We humbly acknowledge your gift, And in spirit closeness Share with you OUR CHILD.

My Own Child

I Did not plant you, True. But when The season is done - When the alternate Prayers for sun And for rain Are counted- When the pain Of weeding And the pride Of watching Are through-
Then I will hold you High, A shining sheaf Above the thousand Seeds grown wild.
Not my planting, But by heaven My harvest - My own child.

The Quest

We were the perfect family, at least it seemed so for a while.
But soon we sensed there was a gap- that we were missing some bright smile;
that we waited for a tiny voice we felt was destined still to come
for here we had the sort of love that needed to be spread to some dear other child,
who needed us to share with them our loving home.

And so began our family quest to find the one to for whom we sought,
the one sweet child left all alone, unloved, untended, and untaught.
We sought for you in distant lands, as prayerfully wereached our goal.
At last we found that dearest child, who stilled the echoes in our soul.
For if, my child, we rescued you, then you have madeour family whole.

2004 by Amelia Harper

Half a World Away

A half a world away, Sometimes it seems we're so far apart.

But a half a world away, Is not too far for a journey of the heart.

My little one, my precious joy, I'm waiting for you.

My precious daughter, my little girl, I know you're waiting too.

A half a world away, A child waits for a family of her own.

While a half a world away, A family waits to come bring her home.

My little one, my precious joy, I'm whispering a prayer.

My precious daughter, my little girl, I hope to soon be there.

A half a world away, So many months of waiting are past.

A half a world away, So many miles to bring you home at last.

My little one, my precious joy, You're finally home to stay.

My precious daughter, my little girl, We celebrate this day.

Knowing we will no longer be a half a world away.

1999 Jill Marshall-Work

Adoption

You first came to us in an envelope

With letters, forms and such

Just two tiny little pictures

With nothing warm to touch.

You grew in our imagination

In our hearts and in our minds.

You brought us greater joy

Than we ever thought we'd find.

A phone call started labor pains

Which lasted 'til we met

Strangers brought together

A day we won't forget.

You bloomed as you were planned

In our hearts, our lives, our home.

Our child of chance, of plan, of will

You're now our very own.

-Unknown Author